I am Mrs. Paul Thangam and I come from a small village near
Marthandam in Kanyakumari District in the extreme southern part of India. I am
a person who instigated others to pelt stones on the missionaries thinking
Christ and Christians are mean persons. I had no peace and was wandering in
search of peace. The impartial God redeemed me through a vision. When I was
redeemed the Holy Spirit spoke to me that, “I will make you a witness to
thousands of people”. The ministers of God who prayed for me also prophesied
the same words to me. I longed and prayed to God that, I should pronounce to the
whole world about His vision to me as said in Acts 1:8 that, “Jesus Christ is
the only true God”. Then I was induced by the Holy Spirit to write about my
experience and I wrote it. I was very happy about it. I often read and
glorified the Lord. Finally, I published it as a book. Many read it and
suggested me if it is published in a website it would be useful to many others.
Glory be to God.
BIRTH PLACE
I was born in a Hindu family and was brought up by Hindu
parents in Kavumoolai, a remote village at Marthandam in Kanyakumari District,
in the southernmost tip of India. My father was a sorcerer and was the poojari
of our local Hindu temple. Our village was named “Kavumoolai” because offerings
and sacrifices will be offered to gods in various places in the fields and
those places will be left without any vegetation.
The Magic Wand
I used to write in the notebooks those magic written on palm
leaves for those who came to learn sorcery from my father. Since I wrote it
many times for many people, I myself knew some simple sorcery by-heart. My
father had a cane with him always like how the sorcerers in the days of Pharaoh
had in their hands. He used to lay it on the demon possessed and chant the
mantra. Immediately, the demon will leave the body crying “it’s burning, It’s
burning I am going. Leave me alone”. He also used the cane for various other
purposes.
Serving Hindu Gods
We, as a family served the Hindu gods by cleaning the temple
and lighting the lamps. Whenever diseases afflicted anybody in our village, my
father would go to that person’s house and make covenant with the demons that
offerings would be laid before them if the person is cured of the disease.
Immediately the person would get healed. If the offering was not given within
the promised time, somebody in our house will be put to some suffering or
other. So my father used to give the offering. Since this happened very often,
we became poorer and poorer. Despite our serving Satan, we had neither comfort
nor happiness.
I Persecuted Christians
I despised Jesus Christ and Christians because I thought
Jesus Christ was the founder of a religion like Buddha. I considered Christians
ungodly since they followed a founder of a religion rather than serving one
among the three hundred and thirty million gods. I hated and opposed Christians
and would talk ill of them. I would induce children to throw stones at the
Christians passing by and watch the fun through the window of our house. If
they scold the children, I would come out and argue with them to disprove the
godliness of Jesus Christ. I also would counsel them to follow and serve Hindu
gods because even if one fails the other god would help and not to be cheated
by trusting only Jesus whole-heartedly. They patiently replied, “You are saying
this because you do not know about Jesus Christ”.
I Found the True God
I used to take part in all the activities of the temple and
also follow all the religious fasting. In spite of adoring so many gods, I had
no peace of mind and happiness. I longed to find out the true god and to
worship Him with veneration so that I could be both blessed on earth and could
go to heaven. So before going to sleep on bed I prayed, “My loving God! Show me
the true God whom I should worship”. Five months passed by this way. Then one
day at about 4 o’ clock in the morning, a person appeared in the sky, and
stretching his hands towards me and said “You praise Jesus of Nazareth. He is
the true God whom you must worship”. As I could not understand the word
‘Nazareth’. I used to utter ‘Nazuvaran Nazuvaran’. I could understand the word
‘Nazuvaran’ and its meaning only after I got a chance to read the Holy Bible.
Christ Appeared
In the apparition, I saw His face and hands looked like
embers and the remaining parts adorned with snow-white clothes. From Him spread
rays of light like the rays of the sun. Immediately I opened my eyes and rushed
out of the house to search for Him and to get divine gifts from Him. But I
could not find Him. He vanished. I felt that a heavy burden had fallen from me
and I was in an ecstatic mind. From that day onwards, I ceased to worship the
demons and eat the food offered before them. I felt that I was a sinner and I
confessed my sins. The Lord Jesus whom I had hated before was accepted to be my
own Savior. I could not go for Christian
worship and hence remained a secret Christian.
The God Bewailed
After about two years, my younger bother became diseased and
was on the deathbed. Doctors lost hope and gave him up. One Friday he was taken
to our family Hindu temple. There my father made a covenant before the gods
that if his son was cured, the gods would be offered silk, nose screw, mortar,
spear, trysul, etc. Thereupon the sprit entered into my father’s body and
bewailed saying that it would return on Tuesday, the sprit left in disgust.
From then on until Tuesday we had been waiting with veneration without taking
fish. It was Tuesday, many people in the village were gathered there for the
god to come so that they could enquire about their needs. Though we were all
waiting with veneration, the god did not come. After some days, my brother
expired. Therefore, my father said we
should not worship these gods any more, as they cannot do anything good and that
we must go to churches for worship. Henceforth
the Lord opened the way for me to attend church services and to know more about
Jesus Christ. Thank God!
I received the Holy Spirit
I began to attend Christian services. The merciful Lord
saved me. Another friend of mine and I used to attend Christian prayer services
everyday. Everyday God would speak to us through the messages. One day the
pastor spoke about the Holy Spirit quoting verses from the Bible, if anyone
doesn’t have the Spirit of Christ , He is not His (Rom 8:9) and do not grieve
the Holy Spirit of God by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption (Eph
4:30). I also wanted to receive the baptism of the Holy Spirit. Laying their
hands on our head the servants of God would pray for us to be filled with the
Holy Spirit. However, I could not receive it for many days. So I was deeply
worried and thought that I would not get the Holy Spirit, since I am the
daughter of a sorcerer. So I wrote prayer requests stating that I was a
sorcerer’s daughter and I wanted to receive the baptism of the Holy Spirit. Knowing well, my longing for the Holy Spirit,
the impartial God filled me with the Holy Spirit and with the gift of tongues.
Glory be to God!
Opposition from my Family
The Christian sister of mine and I used to attend Church
services regularly and were living for the Lord. In a village where Hindus
alone lived, we two alone had converted to Christianity. A person filled with
and influenced by the evil spirits revealed that our family gods could not accept
this and could not help our families as we two prayed to the real God day and
night. So the locals and our kith and kin opposed us and placed many obstacles
before us.
Jesus is Great
As per the invitation of our villagers, one day an evil
spirited person from Thamaraikullam in Kanyakumari district was performing his foretelling
in our village. He used to sing about the gods and my father and some elders of
our village used to sing after him. In between he used to call people by name
and foretell. He challenged that he would reconvert us howsoever. When we told
our pastor about his challenge, he said ‘The God whom we serve is Great God. If
you both pray together with one accord, you will be able to convert him and he
cannot do anything to you’. Thereafter whenever he started foretelling we both
started praying in our houses. Immediately he used to say, ‘Jesus is moving
around in the village. So our family gods are not able to help us and they are
wandering. The living God whom we worshiped saved us from being handed over to
his wishes.
Thus the wishes of our villagers to reconvert us to Hinduism
did not succeed. So they decided to drive us away to a place of Christian
dwellings.
The mother and brother of my Christian sister beat her and
brought her in front of our house, and said that they were sending her out of
their house. As she was beat up, she praised God amidst the screaming of the
children. I was watching all these through the window and prayed God to protect
me fearing that the same would happen to me also.
Everybody stopped in front of our house and two or three
elders came into our house and asked my parents what they would be doing about
me. The Lord helped me to get mercy in the eyes of my parents. My mother came
out running and said that they would take care of my affairs and asked them to
mind their own business. My father did not speak even a word. Leaving her
behind with us, they all left the place cursing and murmuring. Amidst so many
other struggles the Lord protected us. The Lord would never put to shame anyone
who believes in Him.
God's Hand in the Midst of Strong Opposition
I removed my jewels and took water baptism. One day when I
returned home from the church, I found all my things and dresses thrown out of
our house and the door locked. So I had to stay outside for one full day. Many
ladies and children came and mocked at me. When no one was around, I looked up
and asked God what I would do. Suddenly I was filled with the Holy Spirit and I
was able to see visions that the divine hands of our beloved Jesus came down
from heaven and embraced me. Dear brothers and sisters even when you are vexed
and confused don’t forget that the divine hands of our Lord Jesus embrace you.
Glory to the name of God!
Church in Kooromalai
As the Bible says, the people who walked in darkness have
seen a great light, the descendants of the ones who wanted to drive us out from
our village have become Christians. There is also a church in our village. My
family and Christian sister’s family have become Christians. My father, my
brothers and many other of our village took efforts for the church to be built
in our village. Except one or two families, all the others of our village have
become Christians. Praise the Lord!
My Family Members Became Christian
My father was baptized in the church in our village and
became the member of that church. But he was neither interested in knowing
about the Bible nor he had faith in God. If he happened to meet any of his
Hindu friends, he started talking about the three hundred and thirty million
gods. We kept on praying for my father holding on to the promise of God in Acts
16:31 which says, ‘Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and you will be saved, you
and your household’. Sometimes we gave up hope when we saw how he spoke and
acted. Still we kept on praying.
When my father was 83 years old, he was paralyzed on one
side due to stroke. He also lost his strength and hope. He started praying
loudly saying, ‘Loving God, save me from all my sins and make me your child and
give me a place in Heaven’ as taught by the pastors and the servants of God who
came to pray for him. Though his friends and neighbors mocked at him, he was
neither worried nor bothered about them. One day he called me and asked me to
pray for him so that God would give him a place in heaven. I said, ‘Daddy, I
have been praying for you for the past 27 years, from the day I was saved, so
God has definitely reserved a placed in heaven for you. He will give it to you
and you alone’. He was very moved when I said that I had been praying for him
for 27 years. Recalling how he hated and opposed me he cried and said, I did
not do any thing good for you, please forgive me. He also wanted me to be with
him when he passes away. As he wished, God enabled me to be with him by his
side and strengthen him by saying some words of faith. Finally, he said, ‘I am
leaving’ and he passed away.
My mother was also baptized and she lived for God and passed
away. My brothers and sisters are also following Jesus Christ faithfully.
Hallelujah!
My Married Life
My parents got me married to a forest officer who is a
believer. He was a man of faithfulness and truth, an uncorrupted and straightforward
officer. He is a blessing for me. God blessed us with three children, two boys
and a girl.
Unforgettable Valley of Death
When my second son was 10 years old, he was suffering from
blood cancer and he was admitted in the hospital. After two months, he did not
sleep well for three continuous days. On the third day, he was lying down
calmly at about 10 o’ clock in the morning I thought that he was sleeping and I
washed my clothes, bathed and had my lunch.
It was 2 o’ clock in the afternoon and he did not wake up. Somehow
I wanted to wake him up and give him at least some water. However, he did not wake
up. I was doubtful and I checked if he was breathing. I could not make it out
because the whole body was swollen up. So I thought that my son was dead and I
was very much worried.
We admitted him in a hospital at Vattalakundu because his
father was working in Kodaikanal. I was all alone in the hospital because his
father went to his office and we had no relatives and friends there. I did not
know what to do and so I embraced him and looked up to God. I prayed asking God
to bring my son back to life like how he rose up some people mentioned in the
Bible from the dead. I was praying from 2 p.m. to 5 p.m. Since it was afternoon,
there were no nurses around.
At about 5 o’ clock in the evening he slowly woke up and
asked for water. Since there was no water, I gave him the butter milk, which I
brought for lunch. He said that he visited the heaven and he would explain
everything little by little as he regains his strength.
He told as follows:
He was bound by a man. As he was in the bondage, he cried
out, ‘Jesus save me’. Immediately a man came and told him to make him free and
he vanished. When he was made free four dark giants came and persecuted him by
punishing and pulling him saying, ‘Don’t keep calling Jesus! Jesus! Deny
Jesus!’ He said, ‘Whatever you do, I will not deny my Jesus’. When he finished
saying this, the one who asked him to be made free came there and he held my
son’s right hand with his left hand. With his right hand, he stroked his head
and shoulders gently. When he looked at his hands and his feet, he was able to
see holes in it. He identified him as Jesus and asked him to bless him. He
said, ‘I will bless you’. Since he knew that he was dead, he thought that Jesus
may put him to hell. Knowing his thoughts, Jesus said, ‘I will take you to a
better place and bless you’. Jesus held his hands they proceeded upwards and
they came across a valley where people persecuted each other. Pointing to them
he said, ‘Look at the suffering of these people who lived according to their
own will and did not walk in my path’. He left him in an elevated place and He
vanished.
Two angels appeared as he was looking up towards the sky and
he heard them saying, ‘Amen’ after saying a few words. He guessed that they
were praying since they said “Amen”.
He saw a light coming towards him and the two angels held
him by his hands and said, ‘Come Jesus calls you’. As they were proceeding
forward, they passed by a long hall in which a lot of people in white garments
praising God. When he asked who they were, he was told that they were the
saints who suffer for God’s sake. Near the long hall was a small room. Pointing
to that room, the angels said that that was the room where God comes to walk
with the saints. He wanted to see the
throne of Jesus. But he was replied that since he did not receive the baptism
of the Holy Spirit, he would not be able to go there. He felt very sad because
he could not go to that high place. After this, a man came to the room and gave
him a red colored juice in a measuring cup and something like a piece of liver and
he asked him to eat and drink. He said it was so tasty. He wanted to be there
since he was very happy there. But Jesus told him that he should go back and
asked him to follow four commandments given below
1. Be my beloved
2. Be a witness for me
3. Serve me
4. Do family prayer regularly
After saying these, he was made to sit in a vehicle, which
looked like an open jeep and it descendent down. When they reached a particular
place, the angel who accompanied him took a sword and he slashed somebody. As
he was doing so, he got up from his sleep.
When I enquired to a pastor why the angel should slash as
they came down, he said since he was being sent to the earth he would have to
fight with the spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.
I learnt two things from this
1. If I live according to my own will and not according to
God’s will, I will also end up in the valley, though I was saved and was
baptized by the Holy Spirit. Prov 14:13 There is a way that seems right to a
man. But its end is the way of death.
2. If I did not receive the baptism of the Holy Spirit, I
would not be able to go to the high place in heaven.
Later he lived for six months and he gave us some advice. He
said ‘I will not live for a long time. If I live I will serve the Lord’. We did
not take it seriously since we did not know that he was telling it as a
prophesy. One day I was praying with him for the Holy Spirit, he said that he
was experiencing something like an electric flow in his body and he started
speaking in unknown tongues. Thus, he received the baptism of the Holy Spirit.
Then after six months, the disease relapsed and he passed away.
As I was crying thinking about him the Holy Spirit spoke to
me and said, He is with me, do not cry for his sake. Cry for yourself and the
other children of yours.
One day at about 11 o’clock, I went to his tomb and cried
saying, my son who has to bury me is in the tomb now. That was the time when no
one was around, I heard a voice, ‘Praise God that you were able to bring up a
godly son’. I looked around and found no one. There were no Christians at that
time who could use the word ‘Praise God’. So I was consoled that it was God’s
voice.
Also many children of God have seen visions of my son being
in Heaven. Thus, God consoled me.
The God has graced me, the daughter of a sorcerer to know
about the glorious God who came to the world as a human being to save humanity.
My God is all sufficient in my disease and in my trials and tribulations. It is
an undenying fact that Jesus the Savior does not belong to a particular place,
state, or nation alone but He is the real God to be adored by the whole
humanity. If you have not known this living God yet you may open your heart to
Him and ask Him to enter there. Surely then, He will enter into your heart deliver
you from all your sin, curse, disease and tribulations and give you the peace
and happiness that the whole world cannot give you.
You will find the true God if you seek Him with full heart
and mind.
Yours
Mrs. Paul Thangam Kadaksham
I John 1:9
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive
us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Psalm 4: 3
Know that the Lord has set apart for Himself him who is
godly.
Psalm 135: 5
I know that the Lord is great and our Lord is above all gods.
Exodus 15:11
Who is like you, O Lord, among the gods?
Exodus 18:11
Now I know that the Lord is greater than all the gods.
Daniel 3: 29
There is no other God who can deliver like this.
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